Ugh...

Well Today is Cycle Day 1. Can't believe it. I was so hopeful, positive, and confident. Everything seemed right. Then Bam, AF shows. Total surprise. I didn't even have cramps or anything to know she was coming. Ugh.. But i am making it through the day i guess. This morning was pretty hard though. Very emotional morning.

I decided to try to make this hard situation into a lot better one. OCTOBER here we come. will be my month. Were going to get pregnant. Ruby said so, Happy thinks will have a baby Halloween. So lets hope lol. I Have to get over the bump, and sadness of not having a baby yet. On to trying again.

~Love~

I am a daughter, sister, wife, mother. Hardest one of all of these is being a mother. This year i have gained a bonus son. I wonderful blessing, but also the hardest. I am still trying to learn and understand him. :) Everyday is different. We only have him every other week. But still it changes each week. One week its good another not so much. I am learning more and more about striving for patience. Building a new relationship and love! This has been a huge challenge in my life but also a blessing. One step at a time. One day at a time. In doing all of this i am learning more about myself then anyone else really. How crazy that is, so true. I will probably write alot about this.

TTC

We are trying for a baby! We have not tried to prevent it since we have been married. It so far has not happened yet. But i believe and know it will happen soon. Our little Angel will come! I am trying to be positive and believe lol. Were ready for her or him.
Our little Zoey Lynn or Jayden Levi will come!

Feeling pretty great today!

Parenting

I am learning how to be a better mom and even a step mom. Its extremely hard being a step mom. I am learning more about being a parent. Trying to new things to help benefit everyone. I think i am going to keep posting more about parenting. My in sites about it, my ideas, my struggles and my strengths.

Time

Hardest thing right now for us. Is time, We never seem to have enough time in the day. Jac work so many long hours with driving truck and trying to work some side jobs. Never is enough time. Only a few hours every other day together. It is one of our hard struggles. I try so hard to have patience with his jobs. But am struggling to be okay with it all. We need the money. So i know its benefiting us. Accepting it all is hard. I am more than grateful for him and how hard he works for us. I couldn't be more blessed with him.

2011

So far this year....
We have built our family. Jac and I were married on April 9,2011. Best day of our lives. Taben just turned 6 and started first grade. Abby just turned 5 and started kindergarten. Lucas just turned 4 and were going to be doing a pre-school group with some ladies in our ward.
Jac is a wonderful dad and Husband. He is always busy working hard for our family. Allowing me to be able to be home with our children. We are very blessed. He is always keeping the peace in our home. We are striving to do our best in each day. Growing more and more. We are trying to make our own magic, by building a wonderful future.
We are trying to be more organized and keeping a schedule some days its works and other not so much. I am sure it will work out soon. Each day is a new day for our family and were just trying for a better future.
We have high expectations for our future and big goals and dreams. We are planning to have more children. Time will only tell with that. It is a struggle for us. But were staying positive and keeping faith.

Summer 2011

Just decided to keep a blog of our families life. Ups and downs. Anything and everything!